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16 September 2014 @ 09:20 pm
My Old Man.  
I have a very sick cat, you guys. Roo and Buddy are both 15 years old, but Roo still acts like a teenager and, aside from a few colds here and there, has never had any health problems. /knocks on virtual wood/ But Buddy has been sick since the day he was born. He was the runt of the litter and had seizures when he was just a kitten, which left him not the brightest cat in the world. But he's super sweet and playful and doesn't mind a snuggle. This last year has seen dementia and arthritis in him. I've got him on something for the dementia that seems to be helping, but now there is a back leg that he can't even put any weight on. Just in the last month, he has gone from what seemed reasonably acceptable for his age to the point were we are talking about quality of life.


Over the weekend he was extremely unresponsive. I put him in bed with me and he just laid there, limp, staring straight ahead, not responding to me even poking him. His breathing seemed really shallow too and I was sure he was about to go. So I thought I would just lay there with him until he passed. But an hour later, he was still with me and I had to pee, so I got up and showered and ate breakfast. When I went back in the room, he was in the same position I had left him in and Kirk and Roo - (who have never paid much interest in Buddy other than to punch him in the face for smelling their butts - not that I blame them on that end) - were both sitting in my bed side by side, just staring at Buddy. That is not a good sign. I always said that for Buddy, I would know it was time when he showed no interest in his favorite things; food, his baby doll and chewing on string. Other than the food, he was showing no interest this weekend. For the first time in 15 years, he didn't react to me giving him his baby doll. I spent all day Sunday preparing myself to put him down the next day.

And then on Sunday night, he suddenly decided it would be a good time to play with his favorite ball. Running all over the room, chasing it. He fell down once because he was running too fast and that back leg gave out, but there he was playing with a favorite toy. And on Monday morning he was screaming at my sister for breakfast, when he hadn't been vocal at all over the weekend. When I got up in the morning, he was totally awake and alert. When we got to the vet, he was walking all over, completely engaged. So then I didn't know what to do. I had been prepared to put him down, when he was just laying there like that all weekend, but I couldn't bear to do it when he was acting like his (mostly) old self again. The doctor said he will have good days and bad days and I just have to weigh the difference and make a decision. I just couldn't do it right then, with him so engaged. I've only had one pet that I ever had to put down - (the rest all passed from natural causes or hit by a car) - and the cat I did put down was gasping for breath, so it was an easy decision, even if it was a hard loss. How do you put down a cat that is climbing on you and nuzzling you? The doctor sent us home with anti-inflammatory meds, a steroid shot and some morphine. She was clear though that there wasn't anything else they could do for him and the next time he was bad enough to come into the vet, it would be to put him down. I doubt he lasts until Halloween.

I am terribly sad about it, but trying to enjoy the time he has left. I was unsure if I had made the right decision, not doing it right then, but the decision is made now, so I will enjoy what I have. I was concerned about disrupting the rest of the household, since the other cats all seem very aware that something is wrong with Buddy. Like the vet said though, animals don't know quantity of life, they only know quality of life, so I just want to smother him with love during these last few weeks I have him and make that quality a good one.
 
 
 
Shirebound: Pippin pirateshirebound on September 17th, 2014 01:25 am (UTC)
It's a terrible difficult decision, and you'll know when to make it. Your sweet kitties are so lucky to have a loving, wonderful mommy like you.

*hugses for Buddy*
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 17th, 2014 10:38 pm (UTC)
Your sweet kitties are so lucky to have a loving, wonderful mommy like you.

Thank you, darling. It is hard when you see the end coming, but Buddy does seem much better since the new medicine. Not well, but feeling better at least. He played with his ball again today and that made me smile.

(Pirate Pip-Pup always make me smile!)
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on September 17th, 2014 02:49 am (UTC)
Oh, honey. I just don't even have words. I wouldn't have been able to do it either. I hope SO MUCH that the time you have remaining with him is WONDERFUL. *hugesquishyhugs*
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:22 pm (UTC)
Oh, honey. I just don't even have words. I wouldn't have been able to do it either. I hope SO MUCH that the time you have remaining with him is WONDERFUL. *hugesquishyhugs

Thanks, babe. Buddy really seems to have rallied. Idk how much of it is the morphine and how much is just him feeling better, but he certainly does seem to be enjoying himself. He's getting lots of snuggles and playing with toys again. He will run out of meds at the end of this week so I have to touch base with the vet and see what is next, if they'll agree to keep him on the meds for awhile longer. <3
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on September 22nd, 2014 11:14 pm (UTC)
I think it's wonderful that he's playing again! And kitty snuggles are NEVER to be disdained.

I wonder if his staring into space for a while there was him taking internal inventory, sort of, and deciding that he was going to stick around a bit longer....
Kate: Hiding Catceitfianna on September 17th, 2014 04:25 am (UTC)
*hugs you and all the kitties* That's an awful place to be. I think what you're doing is wise. Give him all the love and listen to him and you'll figure it out.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:25 pm (UTC)
*hugs you and all the kitties* That's an awful place to be. I think what you're doing is wise. Give him all the love and listen to him and you'll figure it out

Thanks, darling. You probably remember how Buddy used to start screaming nonstop like an hour before it was time to eat, always demanding food. When he stopped being that vocal, I got super worried. But he's back to being all vocal and yelling for his dinner now, so I am relieved. It's probably mostly the morphine but as long as it is easing his pain, I'll take it. Eventually either the pain will outmatch the morphine or the meds will start shutting down his organs and I'll have no choice, but for now, lots of snuggles and kisses for my boy. <3
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on September 22nd, 2014 11:15 pm (UTC)
Hell, yes.
Jo Ann: Cats: Blk cat wagging tail & earyeuxdebleu on September 17th, 2014 11:07 pm (UTC)
I have been a cat lover all my life and as a consequence, have seen too many beloved pets depart this life. It's never easy and it never gets easier. I'm so glad Buddy has recovered enough to be much like his former, playful self.

Enjoy him to the fullest while you can, but never let him suffer. Just remember that the greatest kindness you'll ever do for Buddy is not let him suffer.

You might be interested is this LJ entry I did a couple of days ago about my cats.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:31 pm (UTC)
I have been a cat lover all my life and as a consequence, have seen too many beloved pets depart this life. It's never easy and it never gets easier. I'm so glad Buddy has recovered enough to be much like his former, playful self.

Thank you. He really does seem to be doing better. I was so sure he was going to go any day but now I don't even know, he may hang in there another 6 months. He takes after his papa cat and is a stubborn boy. ;) I am just relieved to see that he is not in so much pain now.

Enjoy him to the fullest while you can, but never let him suffer. Just remember that the greatest kindness you'll ever do for Buddy is not let him suffer.

The meds seem to be helping so much and he is back to his usual behavior, so now it is just a matter of time - until the morphine stops being effective or until it causes his organs to start failing, but then it will be time. Until then, he is getting an excess of cuddles and string-chewing time! (Idk why he likes to chew on strings - he's a strange boy.)

You might be interested is this LJ entry I did a couple of days ago about my cats.

I saw that! I can't believe your cat was in there for four days and didn't freak out! We once locked a cat in the closet for an hour and he was meowing and scratching like crazy! Your boy is a tough nugget!
Jo Ann: Cats: Angel kitty halo wingsyeuxdebleu on September 23rd, 2014 10:52 pm (UTC)
I hope Buddy is still doing well. I just read that you lost your mom's cat. I'm so sorry. It's good though that she went quickly, quietly and didn't suffer. Two of my cats are 13 now and the other three are six. I hope my "teenagers" will be with me for a long, long time yet.

I can't believe your cat was in there for four days and didn't freak out! We once locked a cat in the closet for an hour and he was meowing and scratching like crazy! Your boy is a tough nugget!

We don't know whether he freaked out or not. He probably wondered WTF was going on, but he's not a vocal cat and never meowed until day four....finally!
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 24th, 2014 12:38 am (UTC)
I hope Buddy is still doing well.

Thank you! Buddy actually seems to be doing better and better every day. I don't push it too far from my mind that he could go - I don't want to be caught off guard if he suddenly takes a turn for the worst - but at this point, he looks to be gaining ground!

I just read that you lost your mom's cat. I'm so sorry. It's good though that she went quickly, quietly and didn't suffer.

I hope she didn't suffer too much - the vet said she had been sick for awhile, my mom just isn't really attuned to those kinds of things. For Mom, it was just a shock because Saturday night the vet called to say Whispa was greatly improving and then called again Sunday morning to say she was gone. The shock of that is the worst, but she was 15 and lived a great, spoiled life. :)

Two of my cats are 13 now and the other three are six. I hope my "teenagers" will be with me for a long, long time yet.

I feel ya'. My two cats are 15 and my sister's (who lives with me) are 5, so I too feel like at least when we lose the older two, we will have the babies to take care of us.

We don't know whether he freaked out or not. He probably wondered WTF was going on, but he's not a vocal cat and never meowed until day four....finally!

He must be so patient, just thinking, "Oh well, Mommy will come for me eventually." :) We have one that isn't overly vocal but he's a scratcher and would be scratching his way through a closed door! The other three are more than vocal, too vocal sometimes, like when I'm trying to sleep! lol

Hope you are doing well - love to all your furry babies from me!

Edited at 2014-09-24 12:39 am (UTC)
lanie: heartprincesslanie on September 18th, 2014 12:37 am (UTC)
hugs
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:33 pm (UTC)
/hugs back/

Thank you, darling. Well, as you have seen in my other post, Buddy has rallied, but sadly we lost my mom's cat. I can't even tell with Buddy what is going on because now he seems perfectly fine. If the vet will agree to keep him on the meds, he may even make it to the end of the year. It's certainly been stressful though. <3
lindahoylandlindahoyland on September 18th, 2014 02:05 am (UTC)
I'm so very sorry about Buddy.

With Ginger I thought I would have to make the decision for a final trip to the vet on several occasions when he stopped eating, but he rallied and started again. He finally spared me having to decide by disappearing after wanting me to cuddle him all day (something he didn't do) then asking for cheese, his very favourite thing.

Big hugs. My thoughts are with you.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:37 pm (UTC)
I'm so very sorry about Buddy.

Thank you. He is actually doing better. It's been a very strange week here with our pets. It started with me being sure Buddy would go any minute and ended with us losing Whispa' instead. And now Buddy seems almost like his old self again. Idek, but I will take the blessing of whatever time he has left. <3

With Ginger I thought I would have to make the decision for a final trip to the vet on several occasions when he stopped eating, but he rallied and started again. He finally spared me having to decide by disappearing after wanting me to cuddle him all day (something he didn't do) then asking for cheese, his very favourite thing.

It sounds like Ginger got all the things he loved before he went - some time with Mommy and some cheese and that is all we can hope for them, and for ourselves - that we know they had a good last day. That is what I hope for Buddy. Nothing would make me happier in this situation than to have a cuddle and a play with him and let him go in his sleep. /hugs back/
Trigger Warning: Lifematchboximpala on September 18th, 2014 05:11 am (UTC)
Sending good thoughts your way. My aunt and uncle just lost a cat last month and it was rough. She was a sweet girl.

I hope that Buddy has a good time with the time he has left.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:39 pm (UTC)
Sending good thoughts your way. My aunt and uncle just lost a cat last month and it was rough. She was a sweet girl.

I feel for anyone that loses a beloved member of their family like that. /hugs/

I hope that Buddy has a good time with the time he has left.

He really does seem to be feeling better. Even if it's just the pain meds, I will take it for now. I know eventually he'll have to go, but I want to give him as many good days as I can before that time. <3
Denidenig37 on September 18th, 2014 04:10 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
Poor kitty <3
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:42 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
Poor kitty <3


/hugs back/ Thank you, darling. Buddy does seem to be feeling better, so the pain meds are really helping, I think. I know they aren't a long term solution, but any good days I can give him until the end is all I want. <3 But nothing cements how old he is like my mom losing his sister-cat over the weekend. :(
Why all the pearls?Why all the hair?Why anything?: Buttersrhymephile on September 18th, 2014 06:28 pm (UTC)
Awww, poor baby. That is the worst thing to have to decide when all of a sudden he perked up and stuff! I couldn't have done it either. I will be beside myself when it comes time for The B to go. Ugh. I can't sleep if she's not next to me! WAAHHHHHHHHHH. *sniff*

I hope Buddy has a good and happy quality of life and it's pain free for the time he has left.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:48 pm (UTC)
Is that Butternut in your icon? What huge beautiful eyes!

Awww, poor baby. That is the worst thing to have to decide when all of a sudden he perked up and stuff! I couldn't have done it either.

That's the thing - he was climbing on me and nuzzling and I would have had to literally hold him down while they gave him the injection to put him to sleep. Like if you have a cat who feels well enough that you have to hold him down, is it really time to do it? I just couldn't. And now, thankfully, it looks like I made the right decision as Buddy is really rallying. But I don't look forward to the time when I have to revisit the option. :(

I will be beside myself when it comes time for The B to go. Ugh. I can't sleep if she's not next to me! WAAHHHHHHHHHH. *sniff*

Don't even start thinking about it yet, bb! I spent weeks after Papa Bear died, talking to him in bed at night, thinking he was there and then remembering he wasn't.

I hope Buddy has a good and happy quality of life and it's pain free for the time he has left.

Thank you. I think if the vet will agree to leave him on the pain meds for now, I will maybe get another two months or so out of him, until the meds start affecting his organs,. And if those last few months are anything like these last few days, well that'll be enough for me - happy, snuggly, playful boy. <3
lizibabeslizibabes on September 20th, 2014 09:47 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry about big Buddy, that sucks so bad hun. Seems like you are doing what's best for him. And I know I don't need to tell you, but spoil him rotten for his last few weeks. I know you must be super sad right now.
He's your kitty, he's special. I want to hug you and him.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on September 22nd, 2014 08:52 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry about big Buddy, that sucks so bad hun. Seems like you are doing what's best for him. And I know I don't need to tell you, but spoil him rotten for his last few weeks. I know you must be super sad right now.
He's your kitty, he's special. I want to hug you and him.


Thank you, bb. Buddy seems to be rallying actually - I can hear him right now, crying for his dinner! Idek what is going on with him but I am so happy to see him doing better. Even if it only lasts a few weeks or a few months, he is happy and snuggly and playing with his toys again and that will be all I ask. It's just hard when it's not one specific thing wrong with them but just the act if old age doing them in. But he is my special boy for sure! <3
lizibabes: A&T licklizibabes on September 22nd, 2014 09:31 pm (UTC)
I hope if he only has a little time left that it's good and he gets to be the way your describing him now, happy and playful and snuggly.

Bobby, next door's cat is very old as well and it's starting to show, his owner will be heartbroken, he's her baby, he's not even mine and I think I'll cry, he's such a sweet old kitty.

I hope your well hun. I got stuff to decorate my room for Halloween today and even got Mikey and Minnie mouse Halloween Pj's with cute bats on! I also collect TY's, especially Halloween ones and I picked up some new ones! I'm a happy girl. Even though I feel like crap.

Hopefully I'll be in touch with the last bracelet soon and then we can arrange sending them.
dodger_sister: lost girldodger_sister on September 23rd, 2014 12:38 am (UTC)
My sister was really excited over the past weekend, kept singing little songs about how it was almost Halloweekend! (what she calls the first weekend of October when all our decorations go up) And then today she said, "I was confused, I thought this was the first weekend of October coming up, but it isn't. Now I'm sad." She could put the stuff up a week early, I'm fine with that, but she has a system and won't do it! lol

You collect TY's? Like the little stuffed animal things? Those things are adorable! I want pictures of your Halloween ones - you should put them up on your Tumblr!
lizibabes: A&T licklizibabes on September 26th, 2014 08:13 pm (UTC)
My halloween decorations are up already. I couldn't wait, but I only decorate my room. I have some more lights to come though.

Yeah those, there is something extra cute about the halloween ones. I'll get some pics up. I've been hunting for more, each TY is only in stores for so long, then they 'retire' them, so some are really hard to get, even more so in the UK.

Some have their birthdays in the tags and people can be nuts about those, getting certain dates on certain ones. I have a halloween one with the birth date of October 31st so it's more collectible, I just thought he was really cute, and you know I love halloween stuff.