But, being The Nephew's birthday, it also makes it my LJ Anniversary! Five years ago today I made my first LJ post. It was a prediction for the s5 finale of Supernatural, in which I stated it in writing that I was predicting Castiel would die. LOL, guess I called that one wrong! I don't even watch that show anymore! My second post was about SPN too! My third post was about a Star Trek dream I had, lol. The first fic I ever posted here was a prompt from The BFF and it was a Misha Collins/Michael Rosenbaum story. OMG.
Look, I've been in fandom a long time - since just before the first Lord Of The Rings movie came out. What's that, 13, nearing 14, years now? And I love the creative outlet it gives me. The art, the wallpapers, the writing. Oh the writing. I have been a writer my whole life, since I learned how to spell! Since I wrote my first story at age 6. I believe, it was about a seal. Even without fandom, I would have kept writing, that never would have changed. But finding fanfiction, it was suddenly realizing why my writing had never quite clicked before - because I hadn't found my home. This...this was what I was suppose to be writing all along. I had come home.
And I had found my people. And more than any of the rest of it - more than anything else I got from fandom - finding my people is the thing I am the most grateful for. With this LJ specifically, I got it at a time when I was so isolated, pulling myself out of the addiction, having lost a very good friendship the year before and feeling so alone, so empty. Once I didn't have the drugs, I felt like I had so little. I needed to get back to fandom, I needed to go home. But would home be the same? After all this time - years even. Would it accept me back? But, oh, it did. You guys made that first year - and every year after - like coming home. Like everyday I open my LJ, it is like coming back after a long day of work, crossing the threshold. Some of my best friends are right here, in this sphere, opening up the world to me. The internet really does make our world bigger and smaller at the same time - but this world, this world is the home I want to belong to - The Geeksphere, The Fandom Realm, the coffee shop full of my best friends.
That's what I wanted to say for today, my fifth anniversary of Livejournal, that I am most grateful for all of you. If you would be so kind - if this post crosses your dash - to drop me a comment, even if all it says is 'Hi!'. I just want to see all your dorky smiling faces in my box. Come, celebrate with me, friends!