January 10th, 2012

hope and love

I'll Know My Name As It's Called Again.

Today is my second anniversary of being drug-free. I got my first full day of no pills on January 10th, 2010. That seems so weird to me because it both feels like just yesterday and also a lifetime ago at the same time.

I had a problem with pain-pills that only got worse after I broke my legs and they started giving me the really good stuff. I was going to go into it even more than that, but I think I’ll save that for next year. /knock on virtual wood/

On the bad days, when I think it would be better/easier/less stressful just to be stoned again, I pull up a mental image in my head of the list of all the things I got from getting clean. This is a few of them.

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Wow, that was a lot of emotions. I just wanted to take a moment for myself and remember why I do it everyday.