May 6th, 2012


When I'm On The Mic, The Suckers Run.

I am away from the computer for a few days and this happens. Adam "MCA" Yauch passed away. I am utterly devasted. We were all in the living room when I read it online. I said something to the others and they were are all talking and I just had to sit there and cry for a few minutes. The fourteen year old girl inside me was sobbing hysterically. I made myself turn off the computer and go play with the baby (yeah, we had a baby here this weekend - I'll tell you all about it tomorrow).

MCA was always my favorite Beastie Boy. And their music literally changed my life. It was the music of my formative teenage years. There wasn't a year from ages 13 to 20 where I didn't own a Beastie Boys shirt and have one of their albums in my car or stacked in my bathroom. I was at that age when I started listening to them (and Fishbone, the other seminal band of my teen years) were I was finding myself and the Beastie Boys literally shaped the person that I am. They were one of my first steps into a place where I started really thinking for myself. They were part of the change in me that brought me outside of everything I was taught and got me looking at things for myself. I feel all broken inside about Adam's death.

His intro lines from "Paul Reverie" have been stuck in my head all day.

Adam "MCA" Yauch
August 5, 1964 – May 4, 2012