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09 June 2016 @ 04:16 pm
A Few Points.  
Just a few points, because I'm too tired to do more than a few.

- I have a chest cold that came on last night. Yay.

- My mother has moved in with us. Probably forever. I'll give you the whole run-down when I feel better, it is a hell of a rundown.

- I have fallen into a pretty suck ass depression, which hasn't happened in a couple of years, so double yay. Or are we on triple yay?

+ Finally get to celebrate The Nephew's birthday with him. Actual yay. Taking him and his sister and one of his cousin's to Chuckie Cheese this weekend. Chuckie Cheese is the ninth circle of hell, but they do have skeeball.

+ Our back deck is almost finished. Should be finished tomorrow!

+ Finally got to show Dad my pics from Comic Con. He got excited every time he recognized a cosplay character. His fav was the dude dressed as the Stay-Puft Marshmallow man.

Also, here is a group my friend denyce started for people dealing with grief. She sadly lost her mom about two years ago and her brother last year and things have been hard, so she thought maybe if she could use support, there are others out there who could as well. Pimp or join, people.

That is all.
 
 
 
Shireboundshirebound on June 9th, 2016 09:45 pm (UTC)
That is all.

That's a lot, my friend. A lot.
dodger_sister: thinkingdodger_sister on June 12th, 2016 10:17 pm (UTC)
That's a lot, my friend. A lot.

Okay, valid. I'll give you that. ;) The summer is here in full stride and my quiet life has been upended. (More so than usual this time of year.).
lindahoylandlindahoyland on June 10th, 2016 01:29 am (UTC)
Big hugs. Hope you soon feel better.
dodger_sister: thinkingdodger_sister on June 12th, 2016 10:18 pm (UTC)
Big hugs. Hope you soon feel better

Thank you, darling. The back deck is finished and just being able to go sit outside has helped my mood a bit. But the cough is persisting on, so we shall see about that one. <3
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on June 10th, 2016 04:38 am (UTC)
I'm super sorry that you're sick. I'm even sorrier that your mom had to move in with you. Farewell, privacy and freedom from stress.... :(

Get well soon, hon - and I bet the rising depression is due to the new living situation. Hopefully once you guys teach Mom her new personal and physical limits and boundaries, it'll work okay. Do you plan to sell her house?

I would hate Chuck e Cheese, but your skeeball strength will be as the strength of ten because your motives for descending into hell are pure and loving!
dodger_sister: thinkingdodger_sister on June 12th, 2016 10:29 pm (UTC)
I'm super sorry that you're sick. I'm even sorrier that your mom had to move in with you. Farewell, privacy and freedom from stress.... :(

Over the past 6 weeks I have tried to send you an email about what was going on with her. I keep trying, but every time I go to do it, something else happens with her and I just get so overwhelmed. I never even knew where to start an email about all this shit. Even now, I came out on the back deck (it's finished!) to text with K about mom and my stress, and she followed me out here and is sitting across the table from me. Le sigh.

Get well soon, hon - and I bet the rising depression is due to the new living situation. Hopefully once you guys teach Mom her new personal and physical limits and boundaries, it'll work okay. Do you plan to sell her house?

Oh hell yeah, the new living situation is causing the depression. It's the kind of isolation and cabin fever I only feel in Michigan winter of February. But it's June though, you know!? Mom is under the impression this will just be for the summer, but realistically, it won't, so come this fall she'll have a reassessment and then when the dr says 'permanent' we'll sell the house. We need the money to redo the basement so it's actually insulated and safe for Sis to live down there, since Mom took Sis' bedroom.

I would hate Chuck e Cheese, but your skeeball strength will be as the strength of ten because your motives for descending into hell are pure and loving!

TN and LGC each gave me two tokens so I could play four games of skeeball. (So nice of them since I gave them $30 to spend on tokens!) but holy damn, okay, it wasn't as crowded or insane as the place we went as kids (Showbiz Pizza) bc CC's has an open floor plan, but I didn't even realize how loud it was until we stepped back outside and the silence was suddenly overwhelming. The kids all had a good time though, so it was totally worth it! I feel like shit today though. Whew.
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on June 13th, 2016 03:03 am (UTC)
Oh honey. I guess she feels like her life is totally upturned and she's following you because she doesn't know what else to do with herself. Can we get her a hobby? Knitting? Learning to deal cards? Painting eggs? :P SOMETHING that takes time and focus and fiddly concentration to distract her?

In some ways it's a shame you can't put your Mom into the basement once it's redone... but I'm guessing the stairs would be an issue for her? Ugh, that's just so hard all around. YOU are going to need a Mom-free sanctuary, somehow. Are there any options for that? Ways to create the alone-time you need? I know if you make a schedule she just won't stick to it....

Wow. That's some serious volume, honey!
Jo Ann: Sick / sad girl animeyeuxdebleu on June 10th, 2016 05:11 am (UTC)
Oh my, I hope things work out OK with your mother living with you. So sorry about your depression. I hope it goes away soon.
dodger_sister: thinkingdodger_sister on June 12th, 2016 10:35 pm (UTC)
Oh my, I hope things work out OK with your mother living with you. So sorry about your depression. I hope it goes away soon

Thank you, darling!

Things are going to be awful with my mom living here. Mostly at this point, I just need to be alone. Like I feel crowded and claustrophobic. She talks A LOT and every time I turn around, all day, she is there. Sis at least gets to go to work, damn! But I'll get used to it eventually.

It's weird to be depressed in the middle of the summer weather, that never happens. It's usually in the winter that I get depressed because I am stuck indoors more then. The back deck is finished though, so I have an extra 'room' now and a chance to get some sun and I go back to counseling in July, so hopefully things will smooth out. Thanks for the love. <3



Edited at 2016-06-12 10:36 pm (UTC)
Trigger Warning: Lifematchboximpala on June 10th, 2016 11:16 pm (UTC)
Oh no, your mom? Well I guess we'll hear soon what that is about. I am so sorry, though.

And I wouldn't be surprised if that is what is contributing to your depression. Sending many good thoughts your way!

xo
dodger_sister: thinkingdodger_sister on June 12th, 2016 10:45 pm (UTC)
Oh no, your mom? Well I guess we'll hear soon what that is about. I am so sorry, though.

Mostly it's about her BP dropping out for no reason and her mental status being altered and her not taking care of herself at home, like not drinking, eating or taking her meds and refusing help and peeing her bed and not telling anyone until we find her in her own urine. It's like she has dementia except it's all coming from the BP and whatever the root cause of that is, but we don't know what the root cause is! By living here, we can give her the best quality of life possible. For her. Clearly not the best possible for us.

And I wouldn't be surprised if that is what is contributing to your depression. Sending many good thoughts your way!

Oh, absolutely! I am feel crowded, claustrophobic, cabin fever, isolated, overwhelmed and an using way too many spoons just by not having my normal quiet level throughout the day. It's also probably a root cause of why I got a chest cold. I am using all my spoons just trying to talk with her (mostly deaf and unable to comprehend words, yet still is siting on taking nonstop) that I have weakened my immune system, so now I'm sick. And depressed. My counselor is back in July. I keep focusing on that fact.

Thank for the support, bb! <3


Edited at 2016-06-12 10:46 pm (UTC)