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18 February 2011 @ 03:03 am
Fic: At The End Of A Brick Street - PG, Dean & Gabriel, Angst, Friendship, Gen  
So, a little angsty for a birthday fic, but menel is The Reigning Champion of Angst Fic - so...here ya' go.

Beta'd by the lovely, liptonrm - thanks, babe!

PG, Gen, Angst, Friendship, Dean & Gabriel, set during the 'missing year' between seasons five and six. 2,713 words.


Title: At The End Of A Brick Street
Author: The Artful Dodger / dodger_sister
Fandom: Supernatural
Category: Angst, Friendship, Gen
Characters/Pairing: Dean & Gabriel
Rating: PG
Warnings: None.
Spoilers: Idk, mildly for “Hammer of the Gods” and “Swan Song”.
Summary: Dean can’t decide if the angel sitting next to him is really there or just the ghost of a life Dean no longer has.
Word Count: 2,713 words
Date Written: 01/29/2011
Disclaimer: “Supernatural” is Eric Kripke’s and The CW Network’s. This story is mine. There is no money exchanging hands. Cool?
Feedback: Bring it. dodger_sister / TheArtofDodger@comcast.net
Beta’d: By the lovely liptonrm, who took some time out from studying for the Bar Exam to do me this solid.
Author's Notes: I don’t know where this came from, honestly. I was writing menel a SPN-as-Seinfeld AU but it wasn’t working out. I fell asleep thinking about how she really likes the relationship between Dean and Gabriel and woke up with this in my head. I managed to work in a reference to the first fandom we were ever in together, Lord of the Rings. And a shout-out to Ben Affleck, because she likes to mock my undying love for The Affleck! This is a little angsty for a birthday fic, but I was just having one of those weeks.
Dedication: menel, for your birthday - I am forever grateful that we both found our way to the Supernatural fandom and back to each other after all these years. And because I know it was Dean and Gabriel that got you writing in this fandom, I offer you this fic. /double fist bump/






Downtown, at the end of a brick street, sat an old two-screen movie house. The lobby was decorated with red velvet drapes and movie posters from the 1940s with tacky gold frames.

On Fridays, they ran action movies about to be released on DVD. On Sundays they ran children and family movies, ranging from ‘Bambi’ to the newest adaptation of ‘Nancy Drew’. And on Tuesdays they ran what were dubbed as classics, though as far as Dean could tell this was simply code for owner’s choice, and ranged from Clark Gable films to ‘Harry Potter’.

In the lobby was an old counter where they sold a small bag of popcorn for $1 and a small soda for $1.50. They also offered a wide range of candy and, if you were so brave, they had rotating hot dogs heating in the glass case.

Dean stumbled on the theater by accident one day, a few weeks after he had moved in with Lisa and Ben.

A few weeks after his world had ended, even if the rest of the world hadn’t.

Honestly, he was lost and just trying to turn the car around on the narrow street, when he spotted it. But it was Tuesday afternoon and Dean had nothing better to do and the marquee read ‘Con Air’, so Dean went inside.

He bought a popcorn and a soda and sat in the air conditioning for two hours. Nicolas Cage saved people and Dean was never opposed to watching Nick Cage save people. And in the end, he didn’t think about Sam, except that once, when he turned to say something and realized no one was sitting next to him.

Dean bought groceries on the way home.

***

He asked Lisa about the theater and got a rundown of the various owners and the renovations that had been done a few years back and how they always had a walk-through haunted house there each Halloween.

Dean went back the following Tuesday. They were showing some Cary Grant movie and Dean found that the man was funny and quick-witted and the only thing he missed was the sound of Sam’s laughter next to him.

***

The third week the elderly man behind the counter smiled at him, handed Dean his usual popcorn and soda combo and said, “I voted for Die Hard over Lethal Weapon, because Bruce Willis is the shit. But sadly, I was out-voted this week. Enjoy your movie.”

Dean agreed with the man, because Bruce Willis was the shit, and then went inside.

Halfway through the movie, while Danny Glover and Mel Gibson scrambled to their feet in front of an exploding house, someone sat down in the seat next to Dean. It was odd, since Dean was the only other person in the whole theater that day, but Dean kept looking straight ahead at the movie screen.

He tried to ignore the tingling sensation running up and down his spine, because he wasn’t a hunter anymore. But the scent of the man was too familiar and though his stomach was twisting and clenching, eventually Dean looked over.

Gabriel.

The man continued looking at the movie screen, the twitch of one lone eyebrow the only indication that he knew Dean was watching him.

Dean didn’t say anything, because what do you say to someone who is clearly a delusion of your broken mind? Gabriel didn’t say anything either and that was okay with Dean, to be honest.

When the end credits started rolling, Gabriel got up and walked away without a word.

Without ever even looking at Dean.

***

The next week Dean was actually shaking when he entered the old movie house. The elderly man behind the counter took one look at him and asked, “Are you alright, son? You look like Death warmed over.”

Dean barked out a harsh laugh at that, because he wondered when everyone else would realize he was just an empty dead shell walking around.

“Think I got sun stroke yesterday,” he said after noticing the man’s concerned face.

“Well, have some water then,” the man told him and gave Dean a free bottle of water.

Dean mumbled a ‘thank you’ and went into the theater, took his usual seat.

Ten minutes into the movie Gabriel came and sat next to him.

Dean let out a breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding.

They watched the movie in silence.

When the end credits started, Dean turned to the man/angel/delusion and said, “I know you’re not really here.”

“Is anyone really here, Dean?” the delusion-Gabriel asked and then walked away.

Dean went to pick Ben up from soccer practice.

***

The week after that, the movie house ran the original ‘Sabrina’.

Dean ate half of his popcorn and then held out the bag for Gabriel.

He didn’t look to see if Gabriel ate it though, because that might answer the question Dean wasn’t ready to have answered.

“Katharine or Audrey Hepburn?” Gabriel asked halfway through.

“Audrey,” Dean told him. “She’s a classy lady and totally fierce.”

“Katharine is classier,” Gabriel replied.

“Bullshit,” Dean said.

When the end credits rolled Dean looked over to see Gabriel watching him intently.

“You look like shit, Winchester,” he said and then walked away.

Dean went and got his hair cut.

***

The following week the movie house showed ‘Apocalypse Now’. Dean tried to ignore the irony.

Instead he bought Gabriel a box of candy and, when his mind would start to wander back to his own apocalypse, Dean would ground himself with the soft chewing sound of Gabriel next to him, smacking away at Milk Duds.

“Ben made goalie,” Dean told him as the credits lit up. “Apparently it’s a great honor.”

Gabriel threw his empty candy box in to Dean’s empty popcorn bag. “The idea of you as a dad is both endearing and hysterical,” Gabriel replied before walking away.

“Sam always said it was the worst position on the team, “ Dean told no one, because there was no one to tell.

***

After that, it was practically a ritual. Tuesday mornings he would run the errands Lisa left scribbled out for him on the pink notepad stuck to the refrigerator. Some days they were ridiculous things, like buying more stamps at the post office even though Dean knew they weren’t anywhere near out of the ones he had bought last time. He wasn’t sure if it was reassuring or condescending that Lisa was thinking up things for him to do just to keep him busy.

In the afternoons he’d drive downtown, park in his usual spot and head inside.

Gabriel never joined him until the opening previews were done.

Dean always had assorted candy waiting for the one friend his broken mind was conjuring up for him. Dean wondered what it said about him that he was hallucinating Gabriel, of all people.

They’d sit in the dark, side by side, arms resting on the armrest, not quite touching. They would eat and occasionally talk, though never in a whisper. Gabriel apparently didn’t know how to whisper and Dean figured if the other four people in the theater minded, they would cuss him out.

“Dark Crystal or Labyrinth?” Gabriel asked him.

“Labyrinth.”

“Bowie?” Gabriel replied and gestured at the Goblin King on the screen.

“Bowie’s a bad-ass, glitter eyeliner included.”

“Bowie or Jennifer Connelly?”

Dean threw popcorn at Gabriel’s head.

***

“Ado Annie or Laurey?” Gabriel asked, as Curly danced and sang his way across the screen.

“That’s not fair,” Dean grumbled. “Ado Annie is a fine flirtatious woman. But Laurey is played by Shirley Jones.”

Gabriel smirked at him.

“You’re going to say Aunt Eller, aren’t you?” Dean asked.

Gabriel just shoved a handful of Sour Patch Kids into his mouth.

Their arms were on the armrest and Dean froze for a second when he felt them brush against each other.

Later he convinced himself it hadn’t happened, because delusions don’t give off body heat and they certainly aren’t soft and warm and alive.

He bought Lisa flowers on the way home.

***

Dean had a job interview.

He sat in the cool theater and listened to Gabriel smacking away on Gummi Worms and wondered if this was the last time they would do this.

“Gondor or Rohan?” Gabriel asked as the elves marched in to Helm’s Deep.

Dean shifted in his seat. “Gondor,” he said and tried not to worry if Gabriel would sit here alone and ask inane questions at himself, if Dean couldn’t do this anymore.

Gabriel looked thoughtful, then tilted his head at Dean and Dean was struck dumb at how eerily similar to another angel Gabriel looked right then.

“Because they stand against the darkness everyday,” Gabriel said and it wasn’t a question.

Dean nodded at him anyway.

Gabriel shrugged. “Yeah, but Riders of Rohan have horses. Horses, Dean.”

When Dean got the job he simply told his new boss - an older balding man behind a metal desk - that he had to have Tuesday afternoons off, no exceptions.

“I have grief counseling.”

“Grief counseling?” the man asked and scrunched up his face like he was reconsidering the job offer.

“I watched my little brother die in front of me earlier this year.” Dean was amazed at how his voice didn’t crack once during that sentence.

The man gaped at him for a moment and then signed Dean’s request form for Tuesday afternoons.

In the dim light of the opening of ‘Return of the King’, Dean caught sight of Gabriel’s wide shining smile.

The angel sat down and held out his hand for the candy and Dean put his arm up on the armrest and waited for Gabriel to do the same.

***

The theater shut down for a week at Halloween, so the local high school drama club could use it to run their haunted house.

Dean rented ‘Goonies’ because it seemed like Gabriel’s kind of movie and sat in Lisa’s living room and waited. He knew Gabriel wouldn’t show, but his heart beat faster every time he heard the wind pick up.

He wanted nothing more than to drive down to the end of the brick street and sit on the hood of the Impala with a box of Buncha Crunch in his hand and scream for someone to come.

Gabriel.

Castiel.

Sam.

Anyone.

Instead he waited an hour and then picked Ben up early from school and took him down to show off his Halloween costume to the high school kids just gathering outside the theater.

The kids smiled at Ben and some of the girls smiled at Dean and they took them through a dry run of the haunted house. Dean tried not to jump every time someone brushed up against him, because he knew none of them were actually Gabriel, even if he was pretending they were.

He made Ben promise not to tell his mom about them playing hookey from school and work.

***

“Bartleby or Loki?” Gabriel asked and gestured at the screen.

“This is a trick question,” Dean said, grinning. “Can I answer Azrael?”

“You can but the guy is a dick and in my family, that’s saying something.”

“Metatron?”

“Better choice, but it is true about his genitals. Poor bastard.”

Dean was still grinning wide when Gabriel added, “Like there is an acceptable answer to this dilemma besides Loki,” and then poked Dean in the side of his face.

Dean froze, whole body tense and shuddered from his toes on up.

“Please,” he whispered and didn’t even recognize his own voice. “Don’t.”

He felt it, the soft prodding touch of a finger against his cheek. Except he knew one of them was real and one of them wasn’t and now he was panicking about which was which.

Because Gabriel was dead and if he could feel him, then maybe Dean really had died in that field, after all.

Some days it made more sense than this.

Gabriel didn’t touch him again for many weeks.

***

“Lisa wants to go to Bobby’s for Thanksgiving. She says they should meet some of my family,” Dean told Gabriel one day, as Corey Feldman ran from a junkyard dog and a crazy old man with a shotgun.

“Is that what you want?” Gabriel asked him, without looking over.

“This is this life. That was that life,” Dean said.

“Is that fair to Bobby? Or Lisa?”

“No.”

Gabriel turned to look at him then, their faces close enough together Dean could pretend that was actually Gabriel’s breath ghosting across his face.

“What do you want, Dean?” the angel asked and his voice was low and dark.

“I want Sam back,” Dean said and wondered if anyone was actually listening to him.

He got up and left then, even though the movie was only half over.

***

Two weeks before Christmas, everything changed.

They were sitting in the darkened theater, watching Jimmy Stewart run across the screen yelling about his joy of being alive. Dean was pointedly not grumbling about the stupidity of the great underlying moral of this movie, just as he was sure Gabriel was not grumbling about the stupidity of anyone believing that Clarence was actually an angel.

“I can’t come here anymore,” Gabriel said quietly.

“Just over the holidays?” Dean asked, though he knew the answer already.

“We can’t do this anymore,” Gabriel told him.

“I have to go live my life?” Dean asked, as if Gabriel were trying to teach him some great lesson instead of just cutting the last thread of anything that Dean was clinging too. If there was bitterness in his voice, Dean didn’t really care.

“And I have to go live mine.”

“You’re dead,” Dean said, but he was less sure now than he had been, maybe holding on to some sort of sick hope that they would all be back there someday, in that field. Even Gabriel.

“But you’re not. Dead.”

On screen, Clarence was getting his wings.

Dean nodded his head with a jerk and tried to stand, his head spinning as one world pulled away from him and another rushed at him too quickly.

A warm, firm hand wrapped around Dean’s wrist and he froze, his breath caught up in his chest somewhere.

“Dean,” and it was almost a plea.

He sank back into his chair.

“Dean, this is not the end.”

A finger tilted his chin up until he was meeting Gabriel’s eyes. The angel ran his palm along Dean’s cheek, brushed his thumb at the corner of Dean’s mouth.

“It was the end when Sam jumped,” Dean said, but he leaned in, pressed his forehead to Gabriel’s and sunk himself as far into the reality of that touch, of the breath warm on his face, as he could possibly manage.

“Be good, Dean,” Gabriel whispered and pressed soft lips to Dean’s forehead.

“Let me walk away first,” Dean choked, gripping Gabriel’s bicep, pulling him in until they were chest to chest.

Gabriel nodded and Dean stumbled out of his chair without looking behind him.

When he got back to work an hour early, eyes red and puffy, no one said a word.

***

The next Tuesday Ben was off for Christmas break. Dean took him to the Multi-Plex to see the new Narnia movie.

They got ridiculous amounts of junk food and afterward they played two games of air hockey in the little arcade area near the front entrance.

When someone hollered out, “Dean!” he froze up, gut clenching and tumbling, until their neighbor Bill waved them over.

Bill was there with his own boy and Dean tried to smile and will his stomach to unclench while he and Ben readily accepted the invitation to join Bill and his boy at the roller rink for a game of laser tag.

Ben grinned and bounced on his toes and Dean winked at him, because they both knew they were going to have a huge advantage over these guys at a game involving Dean and guns.

When Ben tugged Dean out of the theater, Dean ruffled his hair and laughed.

It was a good afternoon, all in all.

Even if Dean’s mind occasionally strayed to a two-screen movie house down at the end of a brick street.


The End
 
 
 
Menel: SPN - Gabriel (B&W)menel on February 18th, 2011 10:08 am (UTC)
I am SO PSYCHED that I get to be the first person to comment on this! And not just because this is my birthday fic!

I am immensely in love with this story! You, you . . . have left me speechless!

*takes a deep breath*

Let me try and gather my thoughts.

Right. So as I was saying, I'm immensely in love with this! Like everything about this. Of course, there's the central relationship between Dean and Gabriel that was gorgeously depicted. Their voices were so in-character. I love that it was Gabriel (of all people - and yet it does make sense to me) that would help Dean through this painful transition period. I loved the device of the cinema and all the references that you seamlessly and organically worked in. (That's basically my love of film that you're directly talking to!) Yes, even the Goober reference. There was major squee at the Gondor vs. Roham question. (Of course, Dean would be Gondor, but the winning line was, "But Riders of Rohan have horses. Horses, Dean." Oh my god, we have so come full circle!)

And there was that moment at the end when they had to part and even though I knew that this was a friendship fic, I secretly hoped that Gabriel would lean forward and give Dean a kiss, a real kiss just to say good-bye. (Because you know that if I had beta-ed this for you, I would've pushed for that kiss! *g*)

And I loved the resolution that Dean achieved in the end, the (temporary) reconciliation between his former life and his new one. During the fic, I adored the little details that showed Dean adjusting to the awkwardness, the sheer mundaneness of suburban living (e.g. picking up postage stamps). I loved the fact that Dean had to develop a type of routine and how the meetings with Gabriel reached a level of ritual that he wouldn't give up, even when he had a day job.

See? There is nothing about this fic that I don't love. Clearly, the BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT I've gotten all year!
dodger_sister: happydodger_sister on February 22nd, 2011 04:56 am (UTC)
You say the nicest things. You know, I had Dean in the theater and wasn't sure where this was going, until Gabriel suddenly showed up and I knew I had this story.

I love all the things you understood about this fic - Dean working through from his old life to his new life and how the cinema and movies is something that both Dean and Gabriel would use as a device for this and as something they have in common, and his adjustment to his suburbun lifestyle (the postage stamps) and Dean's routine (as someone who has recently made huge life changes, routine is everything) - the way you understood all of the ways these little things add up to make the transition for Dean.

Of course I mentioned The Goober - it was Dogma, I would so watch that movie with Gabriel, lol, but also, I LOVE BEN, SHUT UP! And I had to throw in the LotR reference - I think we had that argument once, didn't we?

I knew you were going to want the kiss - I started to write it that way but it just wouldn't come. I made it as close to Dean/Gabriel as I could get it to come without crossing that line - just for you. Ha, you can't beta your own birthday fic!

THIS COMMENT MADE ME SO HAPPY AND I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKED YOUR FIC!!!!!!!
Menel: SPN - Gabriel (B&W)menel on February 28th, 2011 04:51 pm (UTC)
You know, I had Dean in the theater and wasn't sure where this was going, until Gabriel suddenly showed up and I knew I had this story.

I LOVE how the writing process works in its mysterious ways, especially that moment when you just know. :-)

I love all the things you understood about this fic

Thanks, babe. There was a lot to understand. The layers in this fic are simply gorgeous. After all this time, I don't know whether you consider yourself to be a Dean!girl (whereas I unabashedly announce it to the world!), but you certainly have a fine grasp of his character. I felt like I was in his head the whole time.

And I had to throw in the LotR reference - I think we had that argument once, didn't we?

LOL! You were Gondor and I was Rohan, right? That's what I meant about coming full circle. I think you even used my line on me!

Ha, you can't beta your own birthday fic!

LOL! I know. *g* When I first read this fic (because I've obviously read it a couple more time since then), my instinct was to push for the kiss. (I'm Dean/Gabriel all the way!) But when I read the fic a second time, I was very thankful that you didn't write the kiss. (And even if I was your beta, I would've come to my senses and let the story develop organically as it should.) This isn't that type of fic and the kiss wouldn't have worked. It would've felt out-of-sync with the rest of the story. I appreciate so much more that you pushed the envelope, that you tantalized with the possibility of the kiss but in the end what you delivered was exactly what it should have been.

THIS COMMENT MADE ME SO HAPPY AND I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKED YOUR FIC!!!!!!!

I aim to please. *g*

But seriously, thank you for writing this. You have no idea how much it means to me.

/fist bump/
dodger_sister: castieldodger_sister on March 1st, 2011 06:35 am (UTC)
I LOVE how the writing process works in its mysterious ways, especially that moment when you just know. :-)

Me too!!

After all this time, I don't know whether you consider yourself to be a Dean!girl (whereas I unabashedly announce it to the world!), but you certainly have a fine grasp of his character. I felt like I was in his head the whole time.

Well, this depends on what you mean by this. As far as writing, I pretty much will write anyone. John is my dirty one night stand of hotness. Ellen is totally my girlfriend of hotness. Boyfriends = Ash and Andy! Character I think I maybe love the mostest = Castiel! Person I relate to most (and therefore probably write the best) is Dean. I mean, I AM DEAN. The attitude, the snark, the flirty, the clothes, the hidden pain inside, the my family drives me crazy but I am codependant, the basically raising of my little brother. This is also why I like Sam so much - the fondness for the little brother and also he is a lot like my sister. Does this make me a Dean!Girl? The more I think about it, the more I think maybe I am. I mean, I would totally tap that too - hmmm, I will have to look at what I've written and see how much I write from Dean's POV. I think the answer is - a lot.

LOL! You were Gondor and I was Rohan, right? That's what I meant about coming full circle. I think you even used my line on me!

Yep - cuz I was all about Boromir at the time. And Theoden too though. But not so much The Riders themselves. And you were all, "But...but...but HORSES!" and I was all, "Sound logic. Tell me more, person I just met." Hmmm, my memory may be a bit skewed as to exactly what we said, but that sounds good to me.

This isn't that type of fic and the kiss wouldn't have worked. It would've felt out-of-sync with the rest of the story

I thought so too - the whole point of adding Gabriel was to get to the kiss - and then it didn't come. It felt forced.

/fist bump/

PS: OMG, did I just say something was better without kissing? Next I'll say I'd rather have gen than porn?! WTF. lol

Edited at 2011-03-01 06:38 am (UTC)
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on February 18th, 2011 12:14 pm (UTC)
This is just wonderful. I'm totally making it part of my personal canon.
dodger_sister: supernaturaldodger_sister on February 22nd, 2011 04:47 am (UTC)
I'm totally making it part of my personal canon.

Yay! I like making people work my fic into their personal canons! I wanted to work it so that no matter what happens with Gabriel in the future, this would work with canon. This totally happened, right? ;) Thanks!
ranua: traveled for peaceranua on February 19th, 2011 01:38 am (UTC)
wow. I don't know if I have the words for an articulate review. Dean's emotions were a punch in the gut. And Gabriel being there for him. Just wow. And the end, *sighs* so good. Thank you.
dodger_sister: happydodger_sister on February 22nd, 2011 04:42 am (UTC)
Thanks, bb. Dean's emotions were a punch in the gut. Really? That makes me so happy. lol I'm glad you liked the end too, it wasn't quite the perfect happy ending but it was what Dean got, and it wasn't bad. You always say the nicest things. :) Thank you.
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dodger_sister: angelsdodger_sister on February 22nd, 2011 04:40 am (UTC)
Thank you! Glad you liked it. :)
futbol16_4: X-Filesfutbol16_4 on February 20th, 2011 06:23 am (UTC)
Yeah, crying right now. Loved it!
dodger_sister: impaladodger_sister on February 22nd, 2011 04:39 am (UTC)
Sorry to make you cry, but so glad you loved it! I don't think I've ever made anyone cry before. Is it wrong that makes me happy? :)
Giulia: Spn_Impalae0wyn on February 27th, 2011 10:45 pm (UTC)
This is a really beautiful story and the concept behind it is truly original. I loved how Gabriel exactly supplied what Dean needed, at least in terms of confort. With Sam gone, Castiel so caught up in his civil war and Bobby a sad reminder of his hunting days, Gabriel was just what Dean needed, a gentle nudge towards normal life (which couldn't last but at that time it was what was best for Dean).
dodger_sister: happydodger_sister on March 1st, 2011 05:45 am (UTC)
Hi. Thank you so much. This was a lovely comment.

and the concept behind it is truly original.

IN SPN fandom, as such a large fandom, this is an amazing thing to hear. Thank you.

I loved how Gabriel exactly supplied what Dean needed

When we realized how Dean basically had very little contact even with Bobby, I did think about how hard that transition would be for Dean. I wouldn't have automatically thought that Gabriel would be good for this, but somehow when I started writing it, it all kind of fell into place.

I'm so glad you enjoyed it (menel speaks so highly of you, you know). ;)
Giulia: Spn_DeanCas_drinke0wyn on March 2nd, 2011 03:48 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you enjoyed it ([info]menel speaks so highly of you, you know). ;)

I can assure you that the same goes for you ;D In fact, when she recced your fic over at her journal, I instantly thought that I absolutely had to check it out!! And I'm glad I did, I wasn't disappointed :)

And I've seen that you've written a couple of Dean/Cas stories as well! Given that they're my OTP, I definitely plan to check them out in the future (if only I could be a professional fanfic reader for work LOL):D
dodger_sister: readingdodger_sister on March 5th, 2011 06:50 am (UTC)
if only I could be a professional fanfic reader for work LOL

OMG, that would be awesome!

Unless your boss made you read like really bad fic or something. lol





Edited at 2011-03-05 06:52 am (UTC)