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03 October 2011 @ 05:13 pm
The Ships Have Come.  
I just wanted to say "thank you" to everyone who had good wishes and hugs for me, not just in my last post, but all this month. Your support is appreciated beyond words and I really don't know how I would have handled it all without a place to talk. So, thank you - seriously.

Papa Bear was having so much trouble breathing on Friday that I took him in and they found a mass in his chest - probably what started the whole thing with his kidneys. I thought I would get to take him home for one last night but when I got there, he was gasping so hard, I knew I couldn't take him home. The hardest part this weekend has been those few moments when I expect him to be there - when I feel my sister's cat at my feet and think it is him, when I get up and he doesn't follow me to the bathroom, when I open the porch door and he isn't there to herd all the other cats out onto it. Also, that the other cats keep looking for him - Roo, who Papa used to sleep with every night before he got sick, keeps wandering into my room crying at night, and at bedtime Big Buddy goes from room to room in a search and rescue formation looking for Papa. Friday I had told them all I was bringing Papa home and I came home with an empty cat carrier instead. My sister's cat, Kirk, literally stomped angrily to each of Papa's hideyholes, until finally he found the hoodie I was wearing at the vet when I was holding Papa and he smelled it all over and then went to sleep on it. Even Pippin has slept with me every single day, like he knows I'm upset. I also had a bizarre dream last night about being on vacation with my family in a hotel and Papa was there, knocking over the hotel's potted plants. I woke up pretty upset.

A few extremely kind things have been that my dad and my sister paid the majority of the cat bills from all of this, so I didn't have to dip into my Christmas money. hiyacynth has offered to send a little headstone for when we bury his ashes. Papa really, really loved hiyacynth a lot and it's amazing of her to do this for him (and me). And liptonrm had some really nice things to say about my baby in her LJ, even though it made me cry.

A picspam of my best boy and then I'm going to throw myself into catching up on comments.

In my sister's chair at the old apartment with his Clyde Frog.

This is the youngest picture I seem to have of Papa (back when he was still "Audrey"). He is about 9 months old here and this is the only picture I have of him in our first apartment together. I don't know why I got a kitten and didn't rush out and get a camera. I wonder if I have any footage on my old video camera. Also, is it weird that I can tell who that is sitting there with him just by that knee? Well, James was the only guy I hung out with that Papa ever really liked - used to sleep on James' jacket whenever he spent the night.

Papa is just over a year old here and these are his kittens - the ones he had with my sister's cat. The kittens are almost 2 months old here. The fluffy one is Whispa and she is asleep on Muggins. The little grey one snuggling up with Papa is Roo. Papa really was the best daddy ever. It's how he got his name.

Here he is with Roo again, two years later.

Here he is on the couch (where I was sleeping at the time, not that there was ever room for me once the kittens came!) with Whispa.

And here he is with Whispa two years later.

This is Krycek aka Big Buddy in the window at my mom's house. Krycek wanted to be looking outside at The World, but apparently Papa thought he wasn't clean enough, Four kittens and Papa spent most of his days cleaning them.

Here he is with Big Buddy again, not sure how many years have past in this one but at least seven.

This is in my bedroom at my mom's house when I lived with her. A rare occasion when he didn't have a kitten draped across him.

And this is the apartment I had with my sister. On her bed. In Zippo's spot. With Zippo's boyfriend, Mr. Bun. I imagine Zippo either was not at home at the moment or else a fight broke out very soon after this picture was taken.

This is 2007 and yes, those are High School Musical sheets. Papa loved those sheets a lot for some reason. Also, shut up, I can like HSM if I want!

With his pillow. They sew them for the Humane Society and sell them at the vet. We've had a 100 over the years, but that one right there was his. We lost it for a few years, found it at the bottom of toybox and set it on the floor - Papa literally came running across the room and threw himself on top of it like a long lost friend.

He really loved that damn frog.

I don't seem to have any of him with my sister's kittens. They weren't even biologically his, but he treated them like they were. I bet I have some on the film from last year's convention that I never got developed. I should take that in and find out.

Off now to catch up on everything. /hugs/
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dodger_sister: comfortdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 01:50 am (UTC)
/hugs back/
hiyacynth: hiyakittehshiyacynth on October 3rd, 2011 11:01 pm (UTC)
Aw, I love seeing Papa with his kittens! I can't believe how tiny Big Buddy is!

Visits to FGC just won't be the same without my long-distance cat boyfriend. I'm so sorry, and I send many hugs. Garden stone is on order. They say a couple of weeks for delivery.

dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 01:57 am (UTC)
They were adorable tiny babies - Buddy was the tiniest of them all! I must have some pictures somewhere of Papa with Pip and Kirk too - forcefully licking their butts or something.

I can't thank you enough for the stone for the garden, seriously. It means so much.

Miss you, babe! xoxo
Ironlily - Making My Marque: EyesMothvikingprincess on October 3rd, 2011 11:25 pm (UTC)
I love the pictures of Papa and the kittens so much. Big hugs to you.
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 01:59 am (UTC)
Thank you. He loved his babies a lot. Maybe after my brother's visit, I will pull out the video camera. I am almost positive I have footage of Papa teaching the kittens how to "hunt" (you know with a toy cotton mouse, lol). /hugs back/
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on October 6th, 2011 11:27 am (UTC)
That would be so adorable to see!
Why all the pearls?Why all the hair?Why anything?: Buttersrhymephile on October 4th, 2011 03:22 am (UTC)
He was such a handsome guy! LOL at his frog. I hope you have that saved somewhere. *super hugs* for the coming weeks and to being strong. ♥
dodger_sister: comfortdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 02:02 am (UTC)
Do you watch South Park? Cartman has a stuffed frog named Clyde Frog - it's where I got the name from. Clyde Frog had a theme song and I used to sing it for Papa - he didn't like it. He'd get this pissed off look on his face like, "Stop making Clyde Frog dance at me and give him back!"

My sister actually got me a memory box. I have his nametag, his pillow and his Clyde Frog. I can also put in pictures and things but atm I am not quite ready for any of that, so I just have his pillow and his frog sitting on my bedside shelf.

/hugs back/ Thank you, darling.
wolfrider89: Em hugs?wolfrider89 on October 4th, 2011 11:00 am (UTC)
*hugs you*

He really seemed like an awesome cat, and he looks really adorable. Especially with the frog. That cat had good taste. :)

*hugs you more*
dodger_sister: animalsdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 02:06 am (UTC)
He was the best. He used to have a Felix The Cat doll when he was a kitten. I would say, "Time for bed, go get Felix," and he would run and grab it in his mouth and bring it to bed. The doll was as big as he was, but he always managed it. We lost it in the first move and I got him another, but he knew it wasn't his Felix. Years later, after trying several different stuffed animals, he finally decided he liked Clyde Frog and he had him ever since.

I wanted to say thanks for entertaining me with all the Firefly crack this month. I know we usually go on about craziness anyways, but it was an especially good distraction these past few weeks. /hugs back/

Edited at 2011-10-06 02:08 am (UTC)
wolfrider89: D/C hugwolfrider89 on October 6th, 2011 10:25 am (UTC)
That is just adorable. Smart cat! :)

Aw, sweetie, anytime!
ranua: plain sunsetranua on October 5th, 2011 12:10 pm (UTC)
*hugs tight* such a handsome kitty. I know you're gonna miss him, but at least you got to have such an amazing kitty for a while. Thank you for sharing his pics and stories.
dodger_sister: comfortdodger_sister on October 6th, 2011 02:09 am (UTC)
It's just weird. I had Papa for 1/3 of my life. All of my adult life since I was 20 years old. It's going to take awhile to get used to. But me and the other cats are better for having had him around. /hugs back extra tight/