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27 October 2011 @ 04:32 pm
Fic Recs for Anti-Bullying Month!  
It is Anti-Bullying Month. I wanted to write something from "The Faculty" fandom for this - a) I dipped like one toe in that fandom years back, b) I have been having the urge to write in that fandom again recently, and c) Casey is a good character to use for an anti-bullying fic - his ability to know which battles to fight (say for instance ones against a giant alien queen that has taken over his high school) and his strength throughout it all amazed me. But writing anything has been a no-go this month with how crappy I have felt. (If I write anything, it will be a zombie ficlet for Halloween, but I’m not crossing my fingers on that).

So, instead I thought I would rec you two stories about bullying that I have read and loved in the past.

Can I Be Pretty Enough For You? by aythia:
Rating: NC-17 Pairing: Jared/Jensen Word Count: ~62.300 + timestamps
Summary: Jensen has been hurt, and he is not about to put his trust in anyone, ever again. Things might change around the school however, when a new student arrives. But will Jensen allow the change or will the nightmares from his past ruin his last year in high school?

Rec: She captures the emotions of this very well and hits on a few things I particularly liked - how the mob mentality can take over and one bully can become many, and also how sometimes the people who don’t join in but instead just stand by and do nothing actually can hurt just as much as the bullying. Also, I love her Chad in this - it was very early on in my CMM-love-phase and I just had little stupid hearts over him in this. And Jared’s parents are the bomb.

Personal Note: This is one of the first HS AUs I ever read and I had never read a bullying fic before. I was worried that it might trigger nightmares for me. I decided that since I didn’t know the author and would probably never talk to her again, that it would be okay if I shared some personal things with her that this story brought up. What followed was a long back-and-forth between the two of us about some of the things we endured in school, that has since made it a lot easier for me to talk about things I couldn’t before. We ended up friending each other and now I love her to smishy pieces.

In This Secluded Spot I Respond As I Wouldn't Dare Elsewhere by rhymephile:
Rating: R Pairing Dean/Cas Word Count: 34,040
Summary: It's 1995, and Castiel's high school years are destined to be difficult: home-schooled until eighth grade, he is awkward, shy, and socially inept. The weird kid with the funny name would rather isolate himself and draw in his sketchbook than deal with the constant bullying he faces every day. Things only get worse in his junior year when he excels in home economics class, leading the captain of the baseball team, Alastair, to start taunting him for being gay. Then new student Dean Winchester arrives at Flour Bluff High School, sharing many of Castiel's classes. Castiel has seen his type before -- handsome, athletic, arrogant, and sure to be the most popular kid in school. But Castiel eventually learns that he and Dean have more in common than he thought, and they form an unlikely friendship.

Rec: This is one of my favorite HS AUs ever and one of my favorite Dean/Cas fics. What the author captures in this so perfectly that it made me cry is the feeling that even when someone is being nice to you, that somehow it is a trick, that no one can be trusted. Watching Cas go through this slow break down of everything he has known before Dean is truly amazing. Her side characters have awesome dimension for the very little they appear in this, in particular the teachers and of course, Cas’ mom who I wish would adopt me.

Personal Note: This one was actually hard for me to read, it brought up a lot of emotions but I am glad I did. This story is the reason that I friended the author and as it turns out, she rules.

Go forth and read!
Why all the pearls?Why all the hair?Why anything?rhymephile on October 27th, 2011 10:44 pm (UTC)
Awww, shut up, I love you! ♥ Also, I feel awkward responding to your rec, lest I sound like I'm all full of myself. :/

There is a lot of me in Castiel's depiction here, as far as feeling helpless, and angry, and at a loss of what to do. It eats at your insides and, at least in my case, it completely warps who you grow up to be. Constantly being on the outside looking in changes something inside you, too.

It's interesting how you recognized how when someone is being nice to you, you think it's a trick. I didn't intend that to come through in my story, but I think some of me must have come through in that case. I swear I *still* feel that way *all* the time in social situations. I have serious trust issues, all of which stem from all the shit I went through in school.

Annnyway, I didn't intend for this to be so depressing, LOL. I'm touched that something I wrote affected you so deeply, and I'm glad we met, too. I'm pretty sure you rule more than I do for writing this, though. :-)
dodger_sister: hugdodger_sister on October 29th, 2011 09:55 pm (UTC)
Awwww, I love you too!

Also, I feel awkward responding to your rec, lest I sound like I'm all full of myself.

I know that feeling too - but I always try to think of it like replying to a comment on a fic. I sound like a dirty hippie in the middle of a lovefest, but writers love readers as much as readers love writers.

It's interesting how you recognized how when someone is being nice to you, you think it's a trick.

There are two specific moments that stand out in my head; the first time Dean approaches Cas and Cas thinks it is a trick, that Dean is in it with Alastair. And later when Cas asks Dean if they can be friends and Dean is so shocked by this, because he thought they already were friends.

In my school days, there was this one boy that ever stuck up for me, that ever asked me how things were going. I was so full of trust issues at the time that I didn't realize that we were friends. Reading your fic really brought that back into my head.

I know what you mean about the trust issues - nearly a decade after the fact, I started consciously trying to correct the damage done to me by the bullying, reciting a mantra in my head of "hold your head up, look people in the eyes," - not metaphorically, but literally holding my head and not being afraid to make eye contact.

Well, that was depressing, lol - but I think the point is, we are both awesome. Agreed?

Edited at 2011-10-29 09:57 pm (UTC)
Why all the pearls?Why all the hair?Why anything?: Deadwood - Richardson - thumbs up!rhymephile on October 30th, 2011 04:48 am (UTC)
We are both awesome! Empowering hugs all around! :-)
wolfrider89: Em Misha approveswolfrider89 on November 2nd, 2011 08:38 pm (UTC)
I was wondering if I'd read the fic by rhymephile (I have of course read aythia's, and it is just as awesome as you say. ;)) but I don't think I have. Gonna add it to my list now, cause it seems awesome. Thanks bb! :)
dodger_sister: deancasdodger_sister on November 5th, 2011 12:41 am (UTC)
Oh yes, I can't believe I hadn't recced rhymephile's fic to you before - as a Dean/Cas girl and a fan of HS AUs, it is right up your alley. Enjoy!
wolfrider89wolfrider89 on November 5th, 2011 10:42 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm sure I will. :)