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08 December 2011 @ 05:35 pm
You're A Guy In A Panda Costume.  
This will be a depressing post. Next time I will give you crack. Promise.


I’m sick again, or still, whatever. Last week I felt better than I had since…September. And then Friday night, bam, I crashed hard. I’ve been shaking and having vertigo again and totally exhausted. At therapy the other day, Kevin came in and was all, “Do you feel okay? Your color looks weird.” So I guess it’s noticeable to people other than like my sister. While he was working on my shoulder, he stopped and was all, “Are you alright?” and I said, “It’s not my shoulder,” and he said, “I know. Are you alright?’ I guess I was shaking hard enough for him to feel it.

Mostly it’s frustrating because I was progressing forward and now I feel like I have stepped back in time a month and still, a dozen doctors and tests later, no one has an answer.

Also, I went on Saturday and got my hair dyed. Last time they did red highlights that looked good, but weren’t hugely noticeable. So this time I wanted the same, but just more. I said, “I want it to look natural and be blended with my regular dark blonde color.”

It is not natural or blended. The first few days it looked hot pink. It has settled a little since then, into what my friend called Rocket Red. I keep trying a different style every day, attempting to find something that blends it better. If I had the energy or the time, I would go get it fixed, but I don’t. I don’t hate it as much as when I first got it done, but it doesn’t look like what I wanted. I wanted to be a redhead. I’ve never done that before, unless you count the few times I used red food coloring.

My sister says it looks a lot like Quinn’s hair at the beginning of this season of Glee. I said, “But Quinn is 17 and I am 33.” Then The BFF was all, “How old have we gotten that you don’t want to be punk rock?”

This is a sad truth. I feel like I already am so tiny and have such a young-looking face, that if I don’t have a grown-up hairstyle, I get hit on by 15 year olds. Or creepy pedophile dudes.

Not cool.

Now I need some advice on Dark Alec Angel - Can X5’s get drunk? Or is it like Castiel, thinking he is starting to feel something? Or Legolas, when his fingers get tingly?

I’m just curious. I’m not writing anything. No, really, I get to do nothing until I have finished The Nephew’s Christmas project, which while awesome, is also slowly dragging.


Next time on Dodger’s journal - J2 Giraffe Sex.
 
 
 
Kate: Charles X his heart breaks for youceitfianna on December 8th, 2011 10:44 pm (UTC)
*hugs tightly* I hope to have a new XMFC fic posted by tonight or tomorrow and Saturday will be lazy with lots of pretty James. Oh and if I were to make a baked thing like cornbread muffins or cookies, do you have any taste preferences or allergies or dislikes?

I've seen both the Jensen Xs RPed and it seems like it takes a lot to get them drunk but it can happen due to their metabolism but it's possible.
dodger_sister: alison lohmandodger_sister on December 9th, 2011 09:24 pm (UTC)
Saturday will be lazy with lots of pretty James.

And also, I hear, Rufus Sewell in drag. Which is exciting as well.

I don't have any allergies, but I'm not a big fan of nuts inside things. I have a...well, I don't like to bite into food and find crunchy things inside. There was an incident with ants when I was a kid - nuff said.

I was thinking about Alec stealing wine and then I thought, "Even if he drank the whole bottle, would it do anything to him?" Consensus seems to be no.
Kate: James in the rainceitfianna on December 9th, 2011 09:27 pm (UTC)
Ew, there will be nothing inside.

I'm not sure which one Rufus Sewell is in, I don't remember him.
dodger_sister: alison lohmandodger_sister on December 9th, 2011 09:38 pm (UTC)
Yeah...ew.

According to the person on my Flist who was randomly going on about this movie this week, Rufus Sewell is in The Taming of the Shrew.
Kate: Hatter is bemusedceitfianna on December 9th, 2011 09:44 pm (UTC)
My current plan is cornbread muffins, do you have a preference for a little savory versus little sweet?

Oh wait, yes, that's the one I rewatch the least. My order of rewatching them goes MacBeth and then Dream.

Much Ado and Taming are beautifully done but they're not my favorite plays so I don't return to them as often. My favorite interpretations of Taming are Kiss Me Kate and 10 Things I Hate About You.
dodger_sister: alison lohmandodger_sister on December 10th, 2011 02:42 am (UTC)
do you have a preference for a little savory versus little sweet?

I do not have a preference. I don't bake myself, so I am usually just so delighted when someone brings me baked goods, that I am quite easy to please.

I quite like The Taming of Shrew but I find it hard to imagine anyone can modern-ize it better than 10 Things I Hate About You. MidSummer Night's Dream is my favorite Shakespeare play and I bet you aren't even a little surprised by that - it kind of fits me.
Kate: muffinsceitfianna on December 10th, 2011 02:46 am (UTC)
The muffins are currently in the oven and slightly sweet.

Hee, nice then we'll watch my two favorites. I never tire of rewatching them and you'll see why. Both the adaptations perfectly capture the plays.
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on December 9th, 2011 01:07 am (UTC)
I don't think the X5s can get drunk (at least, not in canon). Max slams booze all the time and seems to only ever play at being drunk - her seasons of heat are a lot more like being drunk than anything else that happens to her ever in the series.

Quinn definitely had hot pink Kool-Aid hair at the start ofo Glee this year. I think being a 'real' redhead needs to happen without streakage, unless it's a few colors of red streaks throughout most of the hair.

I like box dyes, myself, no matter what the hairdressers say. I think they say it to protect their corner of the market, anyway. And now, the box dyes come with more mixy colors - not one solid shade.

I hope the doctors figure things out SOON for you, bb!
dodger_sister: punk rockdodger_sister on December 9th, 2011 09:31 pm (UTC)
I was thinking about Alec stealing wine. Then I started having this whole thought process about him drinking it with Cas and then I realized that neither one of them can get drunk. Which is kind of amusing itself. Don't ask why I am thinking about Alec and Cas sitting on a couch together drinking stolen wine - it makes total sense in my head!

If I had felt better the day I had my hair done, I would have told them afterwards, when I didn't like the way it looked, to get a different color red and add more highlights in a different color - so it would look less streaky. But I was too tired and just wanted to go home instead. I would totally just use a box color but I can't do it myself and that's a lot to ask someone to do for you. I have one friend who is not afraid to mess with my hair for me (she gave me my first kitty-hair style) but she doesn't live around here.

Thank you. Mostly I just feel like I'm running around from doctor to doctor when I could be sleeping and they aren't even giving me answers. I will sacrifice my sleep but only for an end result, you know?
Ironlily - Making My Marquevikingprincess on December 10th, 2011 02:59 am (UTC)
I would read Alec grilling Cas on the Blue Lady while drinking stolen Communion wine. Totally.

(and why, why is LJ not sending me my notifications? grrrrrr)
wolfrider89: Em hugs?wolfrider89 on December 9th, 2011 10:28 am (UTC)
Oh honey, I'm so sorry! *hugs you tight* It sucks that you feel like you've stepped back in time a month, it seemed like you were doing better. Stupid sickness. I would punch it for you if I could. <3

The hair sounds kind of cool to me, actually, but I know what it feels like to not get what you hoped for from the hair dresser. I hope you grow to like it, or get it fixed!

Hmm, can Alec get drunk? *ponders* I don't recall them ever mentioning an X-5 getting even a little bit tipsy, so I would guess their bodies just treat alcohol like any other poison and get rid of it with their super genes. Drunk!Alec would probably be really depressing, or really hilarious. Or hilariously depressing. Hmm.
dodger_sister: dark alecdodger_sister on December 9th, 2011 09:36 pm (UTC)
/hugs back/ I have been feeling better and I was totally buying their line about, "You have had a stresful time these last few months and a trauma to your system. It wil just take time to feel better," - but now I'm like, huge step back and honestly, doctors are so full of bullshit most of the time.

The hair is cool but it makes me look so young and it isn't what I was going for. I think I am just going to leave it now because it's not awful, everyone who sees it says they love it. I just had this idea in my head of something else and it's hard to get past that.

Seriously, like Alec and Cas drinking together would be hysterical, especially if they were like having a drinking contest with Logan and Dean, who would end up under the table long before Alec and Cas even got tipsy. It's amusing me to think about.

Drunk!Alec would probably be really depressing, or really hilarious. Or hilariously depressing.

Yeah - Max would probably be a giggly drunk, she is usually so uptight, I bet it would loosen her up. But Alec would probably be really morbid when he is drunk. He hides it well but the guy is pretty damn emo.
wolfrider89: Jensen mcwolfrider89 on December 10th, 2011 01:39 pm (UTC)
It seems like doctors do a lot of guessing most of the time. Wow, that's a bit depressing. Um, never mind. :P I just really hope it gets better soon, bb, and I know that's kind of a useless thing to say, but I really do. *hugs you more*

I just had this idea in my head of something else and it's hard to get past that.
Happens to almost every time I get my hair cut. Which is one of the reasongs I avoid it as long as I can. I hate that feeling: "But, this wasn't what I wanted! And now I've gotta walk around with this for who knows how long!"

OMG, Alec and Cas drinking Logan and Dean under the table! Cas would tilt his head in that way of this when Dean faceplanted on the table, and Alec would mock them both for being such lightweights, and then he would pour Cas another glass of the strongest shit they could find.

Max would totally be a giggly drunk. *grins* Now I'm thinking of Max, laying on the floor, just giggling at everything anyone says.

Alec is so very emo under all that cockiness. He'd probably brood a lot, Angel!style. :P
dodger_sister: dark alecdodger_sister on December 11th, 2011 11:19 pm (UTC)
It seems like doctors do a lot of guessing most of the time. Wow, that's a bit depressing.

I know that is depressing. And I know my own body so when I tell them something is wrong, I don't want them to say, "These things happen sometimes," and then send me on my way.

I actually am usually always happy with my hair - it's one of my favorite features. And I have never been disappointed wuith anything from this salon, so I was so upset to have this new hair color come out so badly. I know it'll grow out in a couple of months, but I so wanted to be a redhead for a change.

OMG, Alec and Cas drinking Logan and Dean under the table! Cas would tilt his head in that way of this when Dean faceplanted on the table, and Alec would mock them both for being such lightweights, and then he would pour Cas another glass of the strongest shit they could find.

Well, son of a whore...NOW I WANT THAT SO HARD, BB!! Then Alec and Cas have to drag Logan and Dean half-conscious back to Alec's apartment and then unceremonsiouly dump them on the bed.

I think I would like Max if she giggled more often.

He'd probably brood a lot, Angel!style. :P

OMG. He would too! And he'd tell everyone they don't understand his Feelings. He has so many Feelings. 8)
wolfrider89: Jensen mcwolfrider89 on December 12th, 2011 10:42 am (UTC)
I actually am usually always happy with my hair
Jealous! I have to get used to the new style for at least a week before I can tell if it's good or not. :P Last time, I still didn't like it after a week and kind of despaired, so I haven't actually gone to a hair dresser since. Not having any money might also have been a factor. :P

Then Alec and Cas have to drag Logan and Dean half-conscious back to Alec's apartment and then unceremonsiouly dump them on the bed.
YES! And then they'd wake up in the morning, all hung over and probably snuggling, and Alec and Cas would still be drinking, and by now, Cas would probably have tingly fingers and Alec would have a slight buzz, and they'd both laugh at Logan and Dean trying to be manly and pretend that they hadn't cuddled.

Alec and his Feelings! :D
flawed_x_design: I can't right now.flawed_x_design on December 11th, 2011 10:52 am (UTC)
I'm so so sorry to hear that you're not feeling well and that after some improvement you feel like you've gone backwards *hugs* That always sucks more than I can say.
I know its hard but you have to believe that eventually it'll work out and someone will figure something out. Because it will. Some doctors are just annoyingly thick sometimes :/
Seriously keeping you in my thoughts hun <333

Gr I hate not having my hair look the way I want it to. Even when people compliment it and make you feel a little better about it, its still frustrating. Obviously you're good looking enough to pull it off (yay you! :D), but its not exactly what you wanted. Hopefully though you get it fixed or it grows on you :)

Can't help you on the Dark Angel front, but good luck with The Nephew's project!

dodger_sister: sickdodger_sister on December 11th, 2011 11:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you, darling. It's just frustrating because I worry the doctors are missing something major and I just want someone to pay attention long enough to figure it out.

I have been seeing doctors from our little craphole hospital here in town - our slogan for this hospital is "Where You Go If You Want To Die" if that tells you how much it sucks. Next month I go see my regular doc at the Uni an hour away and hopefully she'll have more answers, cuz these idiots here don't have anything to tell me. I just hope it isn't a case of where waiting too long means it's too late to fix it.

People keep telling me they like my hair and I keep saying, "Really? I hate it."

Obviously you're good looking enough to pull it off

Idk about that, but my hair is one of my best features and people are used to me trying crazy things with it - so Rocket Red isn't that out there for me, I can pull it off. It's just not what I wanted, you know?

The Nephew's project is fanfic featuring Xavier and Magneto - keeping their voices in-character and still making it understandable for a 5yr old is a struggle. But he'll love it either way. 8)
flawed_x_design: Samflawed_x_design on December 12th, 2011 10:36 am (UTC)
I know just how you feel. At least you're being proactive and doing something about it. You're doing all you can *hugs*
our slogan for this hospital is "Where You Go If You Want To Die" That....is not good. Although I don't really have much faith in hospitals here either. *sigh*

Obviously you're good looking enough to pull it off

Idk about that,

O rly?
People keep telling me they like my hair...I can pull it off lol
But yeah I get exactly what you mean. Its why trips to the hairdresser are all about apprehension first, excitement second.

That's so cool! are we talking comic universe? movie universe? or first class universe? (lol at me) I've been planning my brother's present for ages but god know's if I'll get the time/energy to do it :/

Also fml I need a hugging icon.
dodger_sister: the x-mendodger_sister on December 13th, 2011 02:58 am (UTC)
I actually haven't figured out if it is comic 'verse or cartoon 'verse or movie 'verse yet. I probably have to know, if I want to post it. I have Pyro and Nightcrawler as teenagers and I have them living with Mystique and Magneto. Idk what 'verse that makes it. Because the thing with X-Men is the comics have like 15 verses and the cartoons have like 3 verses and then there are the movie verses (which almost all go together, but not quite).

I needed some bad guy teens and The Nephew loves Pyro and is obsessed with how Nightcrawler is Mystique's kid, so I choose the two of them. But then I did go, "Huh, what 'verse does that make it?"

I think I am just going to label it as "X-Men Altered Reality" and go with that.
flawed_x_design: Blah Blah Blah!flawed_x_design on December 16th, 2011 06:13 am (UTC)
*groan* at my italics fail.

Because the thing with X-Men is the comics have like 15 verses and the cartoons have like 3 verses and then there are the movie verses (which almost all go together, but not quite).
Exactly, its all pretty confusing, and often non-compatible anyway, but I was curious all the same.
I think 'X-men Altered reality' is a good idea :)

nd is obsessed with how Nightcrawler is Mystique's kid
Me too!

Denidenig37 on December 12th, 2011 03:12 am (UTC)
*hugs* hope you will get well soon.
dodger_sister: comfortdodger_sister on December 12th, 2011 03:31 am (UTC)
Thank you, babe. I would just settle for a doctor actually listening to me at this point. /hugs back/
ranua: squishranua on December 13th, 2011 01:54 am (UTC)
Oh babe, I'm so sorry you're feeling all crap again. ((hugs)) I hope your regular doctor will have better information for you.

That's a bummer about your hair. I totally understand not getting what you expected and then every one but you thinks it looks good. Hopefully it'll fade out/grow out to be more what you want.

“How old have we gotten that you don’t want to be punk rock?” lol! I feel that old every now and again! tho I'm still the only mother in Choir Boosters with a facial piercing

The Nephews gift sounds wonderful. Lots of luck for you to get it done in time for him.

are you smiling at the squish icon? I used it just for that purpose
dodger_sister: sickdodger_sister on December 13th, 2011 02:47 am (UTC)
Thanks. I just hope this isn't a case of an illness that the longer it sets, the harder it is to treat.

I don't hate the hair as much now as I did, but it's still not what I wanted. I found a way to style it where the red blends a little better though.

I wouldn't mind so much being punk rock -(actually I kind of love being punk rock) - I'm just tired of people not believing that I am old enough to drink at a bar (especially when the person thinking this is young enough to be my damn kid).

I should probably be working on The Nephew's project right now. /sigh/

I am. When we first met, I knew I liked you instantly based on you having this icon and it is so appropriate for this post.