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04 April 2012 @ 09:36 pm
I Run And Run As The Rains Come.  
I feel like I complain a lot these days. I swear I had a really funny post all lined up for today's segment in my life, but then this afternoon happened.



So, as some of you know, I broke both my legs a few years back. They went and put metal rods in my legs (on either side of the bone) to act as a support while the bone re-healed itself. The intent was to leave them in there for as long as possible, because why not? They add an extra layer of protection against future breaks - I'll take that. But the one on the left leg kept slipping forward somehow, until it was literally trying to push its way out. I looked down one day and there was a stream of blood running down my leg and you could actually see the outline of the metal rod with my skin stretched tight over it. The doctor took the ones in my left leg out but I still have the ones in my right leg. Sometimes if I bump my knee against something or someone pushes on it just the right way, I can feel it pushing against my knee. The doctors were meant to take them out when they did my knee surgery but then they never did my knee surgery, so the rods are still in there.

Last week something shifted in my knee (I must have bumped it or something because it was rather swollen for a few days) and ever since then, I can feel the rod pushing against me. I don't know if it was my knee-cap that shifted or the rods or if it is just all from the swelling, but I decided why the heck not just have them take the rods out? It is a procedure I don't even have to go ‘under’ for or stay in the hospital for. Today I put on my jeans to go out and even just the denim against my leg was bothering me. But when I called to make an appointment with my Ortho guy, they said they can't see me until June! What am I suppose to do until then? I can't wear jeans or cross my legs or lay with my knee touching anything without it bothering me. WTF? And if it turns out there is actually something wrong with my knee-cap and it is isn’t just the rods - well wtf with them making me wait until June? And that's just to see the doctor, not even to have the rods removed.

So fine...go on with my day. Now remember how I got that letter from my social worker saying they needed more in-depth bank statements from me? So I had my mom take me to the bank, had stuff printed out, put it in the required envelope, wrote my case-workers name on the front so I was sure it got to the right person and hand delivered it to the Social Work drop box on the floor of the government building the day before it was due - which was pretty good considering they gave me all of 6 days to get what they needed together for them.

Today I got a notice that all of my benefits are being terminated due to failure to verify information. WTF?! I hand-delivered it to your in-house mailbox, you jackass! The thing is, if on the morning of your due date, your information isn't in their hand, they start actions against you. I have had it arrive in the mail one day late and had them already start action against me. That's actually why I hand-deliver it now. So if I dropped this last batch off the day before but my caseworker didn't get through her mail in the next 24 hours and log in my info, the system automatically registers me as non-compliant.

Ugh. So my sister was all, "You should call your Ortho doctor and have them give you an emergency appointment or have them call you if they have a cancellation," and then The BFF was all, "But you should wait until you get all this casework stuff sorted out, since who knows when you’ll have insurance again." Because my insurance is apparently being terminated.

Also, my house has ants. This giant mammoth sized one crawled across my computer screen last night while I was on LJ. I freaked out. Buddy has these toys sitting on my computer desk that he plays with whenever he is sitting in the computer chair with me, so I grabbed one and I squished the ant. When I lifted the toy up, the ant was still alive and like injured and half-dragging itself towards me! Yuck!! Then there was another ant later that my sister's kitties were batting at and I stepped on it and killed it, only to later find them playing with the dead ant’s body. Gross.

Now that I have creeped you out with bloody medical details and talk of dead ant carcasses, I shall go.
 
 
 
Shirebound: Sleeping Frodo - Mucun/Reishirebound on April 5th, 2012 01:48 am (UTC)
That's a lot of sucky stuff, my friend, and no mistake. What a week.

*hugs you tight*
dodger_sister: comfortdodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 10:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you, darling.

It was a rather sucky time the last few days, but today was better. I got the social work stuff sorted out and the doctor stepped up my appointment by a few weeks (still longer than I'd like to wait but better than where I was). But when it rains, it pours, right?

/hugs back/ Also, your icon is adorable and perfect. <3
Mandy: sw!yoda!grrrmandatorily on April 5th, 2012 03:07 am (UTC)
Good God bureaucracy makes me want to PUNCH things.

What do they think you're supposed to do until they can see you? Don't they even consider that you might be in PAIN or damaging something further by waiting? I just don't understand people -- doctors especially lately.

Ugh. I don't mean to be nosy, but are you dealing with Medicaid? Because that's what I'm dealing with and most of the time it seems they go out of their way to make it as difficult as possible for people to keep their covereage/get approved for tests, treatments, whatever. Sometimes I feel like they want me to dress in a tutu and dance down Main street on my head and when I do all THAT, they still find something I've done wrong and I have to start the whole process over again.

I'm so sorry you're going through all this, sweetie. I know how frustrating and horrible it can be to be in pain and not be able to do something about it. And how worrying it can be when your benefits are up in the air. *hugs*
dodger_sister: upsetdodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 10:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you, sweetie.

That is exactly what I was worried about with the knee - that it might be something that will be made worse by waiting. If it is just the rods, then it will be uncomfortable but fine to wait. If I did something to my kneecap, waiting may be a problem. I called today and they moved my appt up but still not until May. /shrugs/

I am dealing with medicaid in this instance. I had no problem orignally signing up with them years ago (I was smart and started the process months before my 18th birthday so that the day my father's insurance stopped covering me, they could just pick me right up). The problem I have is with them not giving me enough time to get everything together that they need and not filing the paperwork soon enough. It seems like every other time I have to do this for one assistance program or another, I end up getting told I am being canceled and having to sort it out. it's been going like that for 16 years now. I know caseworkers are way overworked and under paid but it gets seriously ridiculous after awhile.

Sometimes I feel like they want me to dress in a tutu and dance down Main street on my head

Funny cuz it's true. I got it all sorted out today but I just hate when this shit hits and it is after 5pm and I can't do anything about uit until the next day.
Kate: Hiding Catceitfianna on April 5th, 2012 05:14 am (UTC)
*hugs* Today needs a do over.
dodger_sister: daughters of evedodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 10:48 pm (UTC)
/hugs back/ Thank you, darling. I agree - a do-over would have been nice. Did you have a bad day yesterday too?
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Deni: Chris/Steve - Shoulder-kissdenig37 on April 5th, 2012 10:53 am (UTC)
*hugs*
I hope you get well soon and manage to get the paperwork sorted out. I hate bureaucracy!

They definitely need some help, because they clearly aren't right in the head, both doctors AND the government.

Ew, how big are those ants? You should take a pic when you have time :-D
dodger_sister: annoyeddodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 10:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks, babe. It was a better day today. Casework got sorted out, I just get tired of having to do this every time I am up for review. If they sent me the paperwork earlier, I would get it into them earlier and this mess could be avoided.

I also got the doctor to move up my appointment - I still can't get in for a month though and that is not really soon enough for my pain.

hahaha You are all, "Ewwwww" over the ants and then you want me to take a picture? You know, I am not the least bit surprised by this, you crazy person! ;) Sadly for you, my sister sprayed the house last night so I probably won't see anymore ants.
fragrantwoods: migrainefragrantwoods on April 5th, 2012 11:20 am (UTC)
ugh! That being said it sounds like the notice you got was one that their state system generated automatically. It should be a 10 day notice or something like that saying that benefits will be terminated effective the future date. I would think that once your case worker keys in your information, they'll be another notice saying to disregard the first one ( at least that is how it would happen here ).
That's awful about your knee and your leg. Maybe your doctors office needs daily updates re. Guys, it's getting worse! Hugs, hon. That was too much bad for one day.
dodger_sister: daughters of evedodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 11:02 pm (UTC)
It should be a 10 day notice or something like that saying that benefits will be terminated effective the future date. I would think that once your case worker keys in your information, they'll be another notice saying to disregard the first one

That is actually what I figured would happen (and what did end up happening - she said today that a new notice had been sent out yesterday). I just hate when it is after 5pm and there is nothing I can do until morning. Plus, I literally go through this with them every year when I review. If they would just send out the paperwork one week earlier we could avoid this problem of barely hitting the deadline date.

Maybe your doctors office needs daily updates re. Guys, it's getting worse! Hugs, hon. That was too much bad for one day.

hahaha lol Well, that's what they are going to get I think because the lady today (who managed to move my appt up by a few weeks) told me that if I just keep calling and calling and calling them, maybe I'll get lucky and catch a cancellation that I can snag.

Thank you - today has been better. <3
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Ironlily - Making My Marque: buffysurlyvikingprincess on April 5th, 2012 07:26 pm (UTC)
All bureaucrats must DIE. DIE DIE DIE!!!!!

(but not before they get their asses in gear on your medical paperwork and CORRECT it)
dodger_sister: daughters of evedodger_sister on April 5th, 2012 11:05 pm (UTC)
Ugh. It just gets so tiresome to have to go through this ridiculousness with them all the time. I called today and she said the paperwork had been filed and I should be getting a new letter telling me I am all good to go. It's just like - if they had sent out my paperwork a week earlier, I could have had it in a week earlier than the deadline and we wouldn't have to go through this same thing every review period.

Boo that but today was better. <3 Are you checking your Flist from Vegas?
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lizibabeslizibabes on April 6th, 2012 12:19 am (UTC)
That all sucks so much. My Mum has a lot of pins all over really, but the one in her leg her cody rejected and it sounds just the way you describe the way your knee feels. What makes me laugh is her doctor was all' your body rejecting this means your healthy!' Like having metal push it's way out of your body is a good thing WTF! I could rant all day about hospitals and waiting times, but I won;t. Instead I'll just wish you luck with getting an appionment sooner and I hope your caseworker will admit she was at fault, not you.

Also ick, ant's, I feel itchy just watching them move, at least the cats are havin fun hunting them.

Is it bad that bloody medical stuff doesn't bother me but ants do?
dodger_sister: upsetdodger_sister on April 6th, 2012 02:18 am (UTC)
They actually couldn't put 'pins' in my leg because of the problem with my knees, but they put in the metal rods, which tried to push its way out and the docs - I kid you not - opened a tiny hole in my leg, grabbed the rod with some pliers, pulled the rod out and hacked a long piece of it off with a hacksaw (not kidding, they had a tool kit in the OR) and then used a hammer to pound it back inside my leg (it actually hurt a lot less than it sounds like) and then sewed me back up with two litle stitches. I was awake but numbed all up and it was funny to see these high tech world-renonwed doctors with a Home Depot kit. But anyways, that didn't even work and the rods in the left leg still pushed their way out of my body. If I hadn't been so freaked out by how it looked, I would have taken a picture. It was feaky.

Like having metal push it's way out of your body is a good thing

lol Yeah, they only think that when it isn't their body! I got my appointment moved from 2 1/2 months up to only one month, so a little better. Hopefully they will have an opening even sooner than that. The social work stuff is all worked out too, thankfully.

It seems kind of cruel to let the kitties toy with the ant like that. I like to let them for a little bit and then I put it out of its misery.

Is it bad that bloody medical stuff doesn't bother me but ants do?

Nope, I am right there with you. Blood, fine - ants, gross.
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wolfrider89: Em Hardison/Parker hugwolfrider89 on April 6th, 2012 05:09 pm (UTC)
*shudders at ant story* Dude, that's just... *shudder* I don't have anything against ants if they're the small, Swedish versions and outside, but inside, or huge, or huge AND inside? Ew.

They're gonna make you wait til JUNE? Jesus. WTF, people? And the benefits thing on top of that? Jeez baby, the sucky just keeps on sucking, huh? I'm so sorry. I hope the benefits thing works out soon, and that they get that pin out of you ASAP, because that can't be comfortable at all. (I'm proud of myself for reading your descriptions of that, actually, since descriptions of blood and wounds and medical stuff makes me faint. Just the descriptions though, not seeing it. I'm weird like that.)

Anyways, I'm sending a cyber!hug your way, because it seems like you could use one. *cyber!hugs*
dodger_sister: daughters of evedodger_sister on April 7th, 2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
I don't have anything against ants if they're the small, Swedish versions and outside, but inside, or huge, or huge AND inside? Ew.

It was especially Eeeewwww because I was just minding my own business, reading LJ, tralala and then suddenly there was this giant ant right on my computer screen, just crawling along and eeewwww. Giant ants, spiders, centipedes, earwigs - I DON'T LIKE BUGS, OKAY?! It's why Dominic Monaghan and I will never be together (yeah, Dodger, that's the reason).

They have, in fact, moved my appointment up to May, so maybe they will get these rods out of my leg by July - maybe? It's been four years and every year I feel them in there more and more, so I figure it is time.

(I'm proud of myself for reading your descriptions of that, actually, since descriptions of blood and wounds and medical stuff makes me faint.

At first I didn't put it behind a cut and then I thought better of it and decided not to subject people to that description of the blood pouring down my leg. Good job, Wolfie - way to be brave!

Anyways, I'm sending a cyber!hug your way, because it seems like you could use one. *cyber!hugs*

Is a cyber!hug just like a virtual!hug or does it come from a cyborg and if so, can my cyborg look like Jensen? K, thanks. /hugs back/
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flawed_x_design: Samflawed_x_design on April 7th, 2012 01:30 pm (UTC)
ohmygod that is so unfair and unsympathetic of them to make your appointment so far off! I am so sorry! Especially if apparently its not just the rods, but something is actually wrong with your kneecap! The whole rod pushing against your leg/skin sounds scary lol and gosh I didn't realise you had broken both your legs, oww! *hugs*!

Ah god your second story is all too familiar with our equivalent here. Holy hell, the amount of times we've been told we've failed to send info or call someone after doing it countless times is crazy. Luckily now every time you make a call you can ask for a 'call receipt' which you can quote back if they claim you didn't call in and it brings up a recording of the call. Unfortunately you still have to send multiple copies of the same paperwork on occasion. They legitimately go out of their way to put up extra hoops soemtimes smh

EW at the ants. I've been finding little spiders all around the house lately :/ But ants are gross because you know they never travel alone plus this part: the ant was still alive and like injured and half-dragging itself towards me! That is exactly what always happens to me! its so annoying! Mammoth ones sound really freaky and disgusting too D:


Edited at 2012-04-07 01:36 pm (UTC)
dodger_sister: upsetdodger_sister on April 7th, 2012 09:40 pm (UTC)
I broke both my femurs which as several doctors told me is the third most traumtic bone you can break in your body, right after your neck (cuz then you are dead) and your spine (cuz then your are paralyzed). I broke one leg, was home not even two weeks from the hospital and was using my other leg to support the majority of my body weight and ended up breaiking the other leg too. Both legs have been all messed up since.

Even if it is the kneecap, there probably isn't anything they can do for me, but mostly I just don't like not knowing what is going on in my body.

Unfortunately you still have to send multiple copies of the same paperwork on occasion.

My sister was all, "Soon they will want a vile of your blood," and I was like, "You know what? If someday they want some blood, like registration in The Hunger Games, and that is all I have to do...I'll give it to them. I know they will probably use it to monitor my every move and clone my body or whatever else the government does with your blood - but if it means I never have to fill out their fuckton of paperwork again, I'll do it!"

The fucking ant wouldn't die!! It was like horror movie zombie crawling towards me!! But spiders are the worst. They move so fucking fast that they sneak up on you and they can drop right out of the sky - now my skin feels all crawly. My cousin's old house had terrible centipedes and I was terrified to use the bathroom because if you saw one coming towards you, you couldn't get your pants up fast enough and I was always afraid one would crawl inside my pants. Crap, now I am probably going to have bug-nightmares tonight. You too?
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